Defenceless - A Poem

I thought I was strong now.

But I am not.

When I consider you.

I crumple to the floor

Wrap myself into a ball.

And Cry.

You see my weakness

And Laugh.

Pretend to care,

Wipe my tears.

Tell me "Don't Cry"

Then once again.

Bring me to my knees.

I thought I was strong now,

But I am not.

Your eyes twinkle.

Because you know.

Did you feel my love?

Did you ever know it.

Or in my defenselessness

Did it drown in my tears

And choke on your sweat.

I thought I was strong now.

But I am not.

You win. I lose.